getting away from it all

i would spend hour upon hour poring over the books, or just staring at the various of them. i still do this when i am alone. well, i am always alone so i guess i do that all the time. what is it about books that resonates so deeply in me? we've all had the sensation of being too close to a situation, needing to get away and put some distance between ourselves and others. maybe i was just reading for the sake of reading. but more likely, i think, the reading is my way to get distracted. from what i fear the most. remembering the loved ones. remembering him. the lost love.